My friend Becca had encouraged my suitemate and I to sign up for this free paint night in the union because it claimed it would “de-stress.” I had so much fun with my friends painting and I had forgotten what it felt like. The instructor was kind and clearly knowledgable, and the makeshift art class was doing sunsets. She said no one had to follow her instruction so I immediately painted what I wanted, so I painted sunflowers and I was the only one to go “against the grain.” When I was younger, in Elementary I used to receive art scholarships to a performance camp on Long Island named Usdan for my drawing and painting skills. One day when I was younger someone in my family told me that me doing art was useless because artists don’t make money till they’re dead. She claimed it was better to be a doctor or a lawyer, that is where the money was. I was only ten and that was enough for me to stop drawing immediately and focus on other things I was interested in, things I would believe would make me more money in my lifetime.
She made me believe that art in society was so useless and I only recently rediscovered my love for art last summer. I have come to realize my family member was wrong, art and creativity does have a place in my educational journey and I can see that now from it’s place in GLOBE. There is a place that asserts the goal of “creativity and creative thinking.” I realized that without creativity, a great deal of inventions or movements we revere today would not be here. Without those who “go against the grain” or the status quo, society would be worse off. Without artists like Monet and Renoir who rebelled against the traditional painting techniques of the “masters” we would not have many Impressionist masterpieces. Without early literary rebels such as James Joyce and Virginia Woolf with modernism and their new “stream of consciousness” technique that became classic novels I studied in AP Literature. Without the visions of Martin Luther King and Susan B. Anthony. Without the bravery to break the traditional mold where would society be?
Creativity and academic greatness can mix to create a better tomorrow. Creativity and education seem to be in a partnership together as well, one that surely has a permanent place in the classroom.
The transition from high school to college was a more significant one than I expected. Taking college courses and being in college are definitely two different things. I realized that way more is expected of you in college and if you submit work that is below par, then professors certainly have little to no sympathy for you. There are not usually second chances given and Professors are right to do so, there is a standard and there is no room for careless mistakes. There is far more work you must put in as an individual and your work is held to a higher standard.
In high school, I had always considered myself “fine.” Good grades without editing much or using WriteLab were easy. I rarely edited in fact, rarely read my work aloud to check it over. In college, I have learned the importance of editing. A part of me felt scared of editing, it’s a daunting process. Writing an essay itself feels like a marathon so editing after seemed to exhausting and in high school, it was often unnecessary. But as we have discussed, writing is a process. It is not a one step method and then you are magically done. It is multiple steps that may be repeated over and over, it is a learning process. So I have come to learn I was wrong. I believed I acquired all my writing skills from high school and that was enough to sustain me for the next four years and beyond. I attempted to stunt my growth before I really began to grow as a writer. The experiences from college have only helped me grow not only as a writer but as an individual. This is a lesson to never stop growing, changing and learning. When I anticipate I know it “all” or have learned it “all” I am not now naive enough to believe it. True education and continuous growth throughout your lifetime.
To be completely honest, when I began this course I was not sure what to expect; I knew group work and collaboration between groups was important but I was unsure why. Of course I always cared for the importance of good relationships, it is part of the reason my major is International Relations. My love and passion to comprehend the International system and how countries work together in an international partnership and why these partnerships sometimes falter or even dissolve interested me.
I think my dream job is to work with United Nations to assist failed states so I could complete humanitarian work and work to heal some partnerships in the internal aspects of countries such as institutions and government. Part of the appeal for this class was exploring the aspects of the risks and rewards and academic partnership. In this class I have learned the value of group work from this class. I used to stray from group work, a stigma being attached to working with others and how exhausting it can be. However, I think the stigma is misguided and exaggerated. I find it to be rewarding. From our group work, I have found self-growth which is something I never expected. I never thought reading GLOBE or Geneseo’s Mission statement would ever really mean anything to me; I thought they were just frivolous statements. They have become so much more to me. I was not sure how group work could ever really benefit me but this course has taught me growth through academic partnership itself.
I recall when in my senior year of high school when all my classmates were committing to college. All of my closest friends had decided, based on certain circumstances, that they had to stay home on Long Island. In fact, a lot of graduating class decided leaving familiar Long Island was too much to bear so many attended colleges near home. Yet, I was determined to leave my town because I was sure I could not grow and really challenge myself without leaving the familiarity I relied on. I knew Geneseo was the right place for this, especially with GLOBE ambitiously seeking to create a “holistic student experience.”
I recall the Bloodchild essay and prompt being announced and being absolutely stumped. I had no idea what academic partnership or the bigger conversation it was a part of. When I signed up for this INTD, I was fascinated and yet completely clueless to what the risks and rewards of academic partnership truly meant. I was enticed to this INTD partly because of the reputation of the Professor but simultaneously interested in expanding my learning and my mind. I felt as if the class would speak of cooperation between people and this interested me as an International Relations because my major, in my opinion, is about fostering international cooperation and peace between partners for equitable relationships.
I never thought I could feel confident with my Bloodchild submission because I was not truly thinking when I wrote the first draft. Professor McCoy told me I often circled because I did not know where I was going with the essay and that was absolutely true. She commented on my essay that I had five different “kernels” that could grow into essays. I was lost on how I could possibly make one essay connecting a story like Bloodchild to Geneseo’s GLOBE, because initially I found them to be vastly different. Through thinkING and looking over Beth’s comments as well as thinking of the “they say” I finally comprehended what I was writing. I have “delighted” myself as Beth has said we would in our syllabus and I have definitely made myself feel good.
When we assigned to complete a blogging assignment I was very unsure of what to expect. I did not ever have to do an assignment like this for a class and I was beyond nervous at the thought. Compiling coherent thoughts concise enough into a blog scared me a little because my thoughts often tends to race and I would expose my thought to everyone. There is a level of vulnerability to blogging like this, I guess that it took me a great deal of time to post.
Although being scared has deterred me from my fair share of challenges, this class certainly helped me grow as a writer and student. I feel as if our classroom is a very open environment where I can share my thoughts and I am not really worried about “backlash.” Our classroom is an open, ongoing conversation that I am glad to be a part of.